there are something that bare in my mind, that make me think of it non-stop.....
it just keep buzzing me.....it keeps remind me about somethings that i don't really wanna remember about it.....
i hate this feeling, but when the tears keep falling down.....i started realize that i somehow not even try to forget about it.....am i a stupid? or somehow idiot? perhaps we both knew what had happen between us.....but i keep telling myself you are the one to blame and not me......but, in a sudden i remembered that i can't even blame on you, i had the responsible towards this problem also.....
i make it to be your wrong and put all the blame on you because i think that it makes me feel more better, but i don't even notice how was your feeling at all and now i notice how pain and how suffered is it.....i apologize that i did it to you.....although i know it's too late...i really feel sorry about that......
please forgive me to be so naive and childish, i know you done everything that is good for me, but i dun even know how to appreciate it.....i just let it just pass by my life and never grab the chance myself and the precious things is just gone.....can i turn back again to grab it.....will they another chances waiting for me.......or i deserved to be punish for that......
....now i now how it feels, if i not heard of that......maybe i still think that is your fault at all......but,can i get it back now or they had just pass my life just like that? now,i feel i m in the miserable state......would you rescue me from that? or you just might stand outside of my world and keep your eyes on me? that is not i wish too....i know i can't make the decision......
i wish that you can exist in my life now.....keep me on when i falls, pamper me when i was good enough, feed me up when i am hungry and accompany me in the night that i can't fall asleep, stay by my side when i had a nightmare and so so on......that is what i wish from you....is it too over?
it is just like a cup of water that falls suddenly that can't keep it back into the cup again.........
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