What they said~

Problems ah problems~stay away from me can~!
You bothering me and make me freaking emo recently~
The problem I hate the most made me lost direction~
I asked my friends, what should i do,what their opinion?
The first, my family support me, say that I can try.....
The second person, my lil' sis asked me followed my heart~
What I answered was, what if my heart lie to me?
The third person, my lil' bro asked me just to give up~
I told him is too hard to let go~
The fourth person, my best friend told me the problem is not easy to solve~
I told her, I know about that, but I do not want to give up so easy~if there's no chance,then I just will give up~ I wanna fight for the chances~
The fifth person, my "si gong" asked me to followed my feeling~
What I told him was, what if my feeling also lie to me?

What should I do?
I felt tired if keep doubting~
But I'm the one who do not have the courage to ask you about it~
I'm really a coward~
What about you just say that "you do not have any chances, stop thinking about it!"
Maybe I'll feel more better~
Please just give me death sentence~
Just go ahead and break my heart~!

the truth~

The truth that is what you not going to tell me,
Is it so hard to tell the truth?
You making me hanging in the mid air~
If fly to high make me doubts about the happiness that I have now, whether it will just gone in a second,
If fall down now, I feel so reconciled about it~
What I gonna do now?
I felt so powerless....I feel like falling apart~
Tell me the truth is better than you cover up from me~
What if I discovered it myself, how sad I will be?
You make me lost the direction now~
What if I step out, will it be any negative changes between you and me?
What if I step back, can I just taking back all my feelings towards you?
I knew the truth early before, but it is much more better that come out from your mouth~
Anyway, I still wanna to keep going~give me some strength please, so I can make it better by my own and although fail I'll still happy to have you as my friend.....

YOU think I don't, but I do

I guess that you do not know that I maybe know everything about you
Actually I know more than what you may not expected me to know
Maybe you do not expected me to know, but m still know about it
I'm not that mind actually, I just follow where my feeling lead me
I admit that my heart broke into pieces when I noticed it
Although I guess it before, but I just do not want to believe that may be I'm right
But at last I found out....
I hesitated before whether am I still want to continue,
But the conclusion was I'll stood still where I am until I see that's no chances for me,
Then I'll give up~but not now....
I thought I can stop and take back all what I've give~
But I'm wrong,when the day I step out, is hard for me to step back anymore...
Just like my friends tell me that, you think you can stop just when you want it to be?
It is not so easy at all~ Love is not a thing that you can control and even when you want it to stop then it will stop for you, that's impossible~
So, I decided to wait, don't care how high I fall from, at least I had it before....

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