wat is friends like.....

anyone can tell me, wat is frens like.............
becoz of some words of my frens...........i think abt it all through tis week.....
i thinkin whether wat they tell really rite and occurs around me..........
frens......tis word like it means some teasing for me.......i duno y.....

i try to feel wat friendship is like......
friends come and go in my life,
they don't even stop to care and c wat happen around u.....
they didn't ask abt the things occurs in ur life....they even not to take attention abt tat.....
some will say frienship is jz a relationship that exploit to each other,
we try to take advantages on each other,like care and warmth......
can u even noe who is main character in ur life, and who is the oni side character?
sumtimes feel tat i'm not really exist in the circle i should be in.....
i try to be hard, but the more i wanted to be, the more i getting hurt,
when u get hurt, there was a scar on it....
it was to hard to cover, the scar jz bring me to the shadow.....
i dun wan that the scar that bring pain to me, i reali cant stand for it.....
the shadow lead me to be offensive.....

i thought if i can pretend to not see it or hear it, i will feel better,but i'm wrong.......
i try to feel it wiv my heart, den it will more even be better.......
ictry it hard, but can u all pls change ur style when i'm talk to u, dun show the expression tat i not really care wat u talk, i cant stand it anymore, or dun even answer my question very unfriendly,
i talking good to u, and nt argue wiv u.....
and dun even judge my opinion, i can tell u i hate it if u do like tat, u hurt my feeling very deep....
i dun wan to be the one who do the stupid changes, if u can do it, i oso cant earn a good relationship wiv u all,
plz everytime take care abt ur talk behaviour, i dun wan to be hurting by u all....
i oni gt a heart and there was ady a scar that deep enough for me tat cant cure even till the day i die, i dun wan to get more scar in my heart and hurt.......
is tat happen, i realli will becum desperate.........i try very hard be4 to let the scare in my heart get cure, bt it cant......i becum more deeper and deeper to hurt my heart, evertime i try hard to pretend tat is nothing to me, there was more hard for me.....
pls change it, i reali need u all too care abt me, even "him" oso......try to learn how perceive it pls....if i cant do it, y cant u all......