Live every hour, every minute, every second with meaning... don't left any regret on it....life gonna be nothing alright, so you have to make it better! Live it and feel it! It gonna heal one day!Now come my life~
something happened this recently, it made me thinks a lot of things.....i ask myself what is the meaning of life for me? is that friendship really important for me? i realize i need my family badly recently.....i don't want to go for a counselling sessions again this time....i don't even want to step into the room again....so,i tell my family members about my problems,we discussed and we solved it together.....
actually,i wanna ask about the opinion of you all who read my blog......what do you all expected in your life? for me what i really expected in my life now is all the things go swimmingly and i don't even need to worried about....but it is impossible, life always filled with ups and downs just like a "roller coaster"......
when the time i faced some problem, i always tell myself "joanne, you can go through it, wherever how hard it is"......i believed in myself.....i've been go through the worst time in my life that made me fall apart.....when i just stepped into a new stage of my life, i lost my loved one, my dad.....my dad passed away when i was in form 1,13 years old, that my new journey just started...i blame him for just left me behind without any words.....what i wished was i want him to watch me graduate in college or uni with proud, i want him to bless me when i get married or even get him a grandchild, i want him to see me succeed in my life....but the day he gone, my wished was just blown away by the wind.....
i fight for what i want in my life, now i worked hard in my study to own a good future for my family, my mum,my brothers, my aunt and even myself....my mum work very hard to send me to college,i don't want to let her down, i knew how burden she was, she had to pay my college fees and my youngest brother fees too.....but i won't take is as granted.....i appreciated and cherished it a lot....
even though, i had a lot of good friends and heavenly good family members by my side, buut sometimes, some people existed in your life and they ruined up and messed up your life......this kind of people are really sucks....so please fuck off from my life, you know yourself ,right? or did i need to list out the names of you all? you all will have to pay for what you had done....so please watch out yourself......i really hated those people....anyway, i believed i can go through this because you all, my best friends and my family will always by my side to support me......
this is a song david cook write for his brother,adam, who has brain cancer.....a nice and touched song......
Lyrics:
Is this the moment where I look you in the eye? Forgive my broken promise that you`ll never see me cry And everything, it will surely change even if I tell you I won`t go away today
Will you think that you`re all alone When no one`s there to hold your hand? And all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary rest your head I`m permanent
I know he`s living in hell every single day And so I ask Oh God is there some way for me to take his place And when they say it`s all touch and go I wish I could make it go away But still you say
Will you think that you`re all alone when no one`s there to hold your hand? When all you know seems so far away and everything is temporary, rest your head I`m permanent I`m permanent Is the moment where i look you in the eye? Forgive my promise that you`ll never see me cry.
just now i went for my friend's house,shirnee.....we had a steamboat dinner together that we planned it yesterday night after she just back from new zealand....then, she phoned me today and she decided to come and fetch me on 5pm....so after i help my mum to done the households, then i go for a bath and get my self prepared....
5pm sharp, shirnee came to fetch me and we went to buy all the ingredients that we needed, after finish bought it, we went back to her home and wash the ingredients and well-prepared the dishes....at 7pm we start our dinner together with her mum and dad......i stayed at her house till 9pm something and her's father (whole family) fetch me back home.....
the candies bought by shirnee from new zealand.......
before i left her home, she gave me a box of candy that she bought from new zealand ....i'll post up the photo for you guys.....the candy are really colourful and delicious as well....thanks shirnee for the candies....she's sweet...haha:b....
what you miss the most? your parent, your friends, your lover, your house, your comic, book, movie,song, car, pets, other things that i not even know about or the food?
for me, i miss the food in my hometown very much...haha....i like to eat a lot.....i miss "nasi lemak", "satay" and "roti canai"....i miss them a lot....
the "satay" i bought just now.....
just now after my yoga class, i tell my mum i'm very hungry, then she asked me to walk to the "mamak " stall near my house to buy "satay"(cause i mentioned today that i had already one year didn't eat it), then i refused to go, because i paiseh go alone :b......after that, i really can't stand it anymore, so i decided to go there but my mum must accompany me.....at last we went there to buy some "satay" back....i'm so happy that i finally ate it....wakaka:P.....
this is the things i mentioned that i do not know how to explain it......
recently, my aunt also do something for me to eat....a delicious kind of food but i do not know how to explain it...sorry....i'll post the pic up,and you all guess yourself....haha :)......
YEAH FINALLY I REALIZED THAT I’M NOTHING WITHOUT YOU I WAS SO WRONG FORGIVE ME
Ah Ah Ah Ah ~
파도처럼 부숴진 내 맘 Padocheoreom buswojin nae mam My broken heart like a wave
바람처럼 흔들리는 내 맘 Baramcheoreom heundeullineun nae mam My shaken heart like a wind.
연기처럼 사라진 내 사랑 Yeongicheoreom sarajin nae sarang My heart vanished like smoke
문신처럼 지워지지가 않아 Munsincheoreom jiwojijiga anha It can’t be removed like a tattoo
한숨만 땅이 꺼지라 쉬죠 Hansumman ttangi kkeojira swijyo I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
내 가슴속엔 먼지만 쌓이죠 (say good bye) Nae gaseumsogen meonjiman ssahijyo SAY GOODBYE Only dusts are piled up in my mind(say goodbye)
YEAH~
네가 없인 단 하루도 못 살것만 같았던 나 Nega eobsin dan harudo mot salgeotman gatatdeon na Yeah, I thought I wouldn’t be able to live even one day without you
생각과는 다르게도 그럭저럭 혼자 잘 살아 Saenggakgwaneun dareugedo geureokjeoreok honja jal sara But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
보고싶다고 불러봐도 넌 아무 대답없잖아 Bogosipdago bulleobwado neon amu daedabeobtjanha You don’t answer anything as I cry out “I miss you”
헛된 기대 걸어봐도 이젠 소용없잖아 Heotdoen gidae georeobwado ijen soyongeobtjanha I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless
네 옆에 있는 그 사람이 뭔지 혹시 널 울리진 않는지 Ne yeope inneun geu sarami mwonji hoksi neol ullijin annneunji What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
그대 내가 보이긴 하는지 벌써 싹 다 잊었는지 Geudae naega boigin haneunji beolsseo ssak da ijeonneunji Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
걱정돼 다가가기조차 말을 걸 수 조차 없어 애태우고 Geokjeongdwae dagagagijocha mareul geol su jocha eobseo aetaeugo I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can’t get close nor try to talk to you
나 홀로 긴 밤을 지새우죠 수백번 지워내죠 Na hollo gin bameul jisaeujyo subaekbeon jiwonaejyo I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
돌아보지말고 떠나가라 Dorabojimalgo tteonagara Don’t look back and leave
또나를 찾지말고 살아가라 Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara Don’t find me again and live (on)
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
나를 찾지말고 살아가라 Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara take only the good memories
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae I can bear it in some way
그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해 Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae I can stand in some way
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae You should be happy if you are like this
하루하루 Haru haru day by day
무뎌져가네 Mudyeojyeogane I become dull
OH GIRL I CRY CRY YO MY ALL (SAY GOODBYE)
길을 걷다 너와 나 우리 마주친다해도 Gireul geotda neowa na uri majuchindahaedo If we pass by each other on the street
못 본척 하고서 그대로 가던길 가줘 Mot boncheok hagoseo geudaero gadeongil gajwo Act like you didn’t see me and go the way you were walking to
자꾸만 옛 생각이 떠오르면 아마도 Jakkuman yet saenggagi tteooreumyeon amado If you keep thinking about our past memories
나도 몰래 그댈 찾아갈지도 몰라 Nado mollae geudael chajagaljido molla I might go look for you secretly
넌 늘 그 사람과 행복하게 넌 늘 내가 다른 맘 안 먹게 Neon neul geu saramgwa haengbokhage neon neul naega dareun mam an meokge Always be happy with him, (so) I won’t ever get a different mind, Even smallest regret won’t be left out ever
넌 늘 작은 미련도 안 남게끔 잘 지내줘 나 보란듯이 Neon neul jageun miryeondo an namgekkeum jal jinaejwo na borandeusi Please live well as if I should feel jealous
넌 늘 저 하늘같이 하얗게 뜬 구름과도 같이 새파랗게 Neon neul jeo haneulgachi hayake tteun gureumgwado gachi saeparake You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
넌 늘 그렇게 웃어줘 아무 일 없듯이 Neon neul geureoke useojwo amu il eopdeusi Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened
돌아보지말고 떠나가라 Dorabojimalgo tteonagara Don’t look back and leave
또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라 Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara Don’t find me again and live (on)
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie Because I have no regrets from loving you,
좋았던 기억만 가져가라 Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara take only the good memories
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae I can bear it in some way
그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해 Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae I can stand in some way
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae You should be happy if you are like this
하루하루 Haru haru day by day
무뎌져가네 Mudyeojyeogane I become dull
나를 떠나서 맘 편해지길 (나를 잊고서 살아가줘) Nareul tteonaseo mam pyeonhaejigil (nareul itgoseo saragajwo) I hope your heart feels relieved, Please forget about me and live (on)
그 눈물은 다 마를테니 ye (하루하루 지나면) Geu nunmureun da mareulteni YEAH (haruharu jinamyeon) Those tears will dry completely, As time passes by
차라리 만나지 않았더라면 덜 아플텐데 um Charari mannaji anhatdeoramyeon deol apeultende UM It would’ve hurt less if we didn’t meet at all (mm)
영원히 함께하자던 그 약속 이젠 Yeongwonhi hamkkehajadeon geu yaksok ijen Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
추억에 묻어두길 바래 baby 널 위해 기도해 Chueoge mudeodugil barae baby neol wihae gidohae I pray for you
돌아보지말고 떠나가라 Dorabojimalgo tteonagara Don’t look back and leave
또 나를 찾지말고 살아가라 Tto nareul chatjimalgo saragara Don’t find me again and live (on)
너를 사랑했기에 후회없기에 Neoreul saranghaetgie huhoeeopgie Because I have no regrets from loving you,
좋았던 기억만 가져가라 Johatdeon gieongman gajyeogara take only the good memories
그럭저럭 참아볼만해 Geureokjeoreok chamabolmanhae I can bear it in some way
그럭저럭 견뎌낼만해 Geureokjeoreok gyeondyeonaelmanhae I can stand in some way
넌 그럴수록 행복해야돼 Neon geureolsurok haengbokhaeyadwae You should be happy if you are like this
하루하루 Haru haru day by day
무뎌져가네 Mudyeojyeogane I become dull
OH GIRL I CRY CRY YO MY ALL SAY GOODBYE BYE OH MY LOVE DON’T LIE LIE YO MY HEART SAY GOODBYE
a mistake that i made was to get to know you, the second mistakes i made was being one of your friend, and the biggest mistake i've made was fall in love with you......
the mistake started when we became best friends, we share our happiness and sadness together,we cry and laugh together, but we shouldn't get into so deep. isn't it?
you've been ask me a question, "what would you do if u fall in love with a people that can't love you?" i answer you without hesitated that i'll just turn around and walk away.... i ask you back the question, and you said, "i won't let her know till the day i'm not longer in this world".....
honestly, i really do not expect anythings happen in my life and change my view, i don't even think about how's my life in future, i don't even expect anything from you..... although your love and your care too..... but did you expect anything from me?
if you ask me that question again, maybe i'll change my answer, i'll said "i'll give him what i had without any hesitating" i don't want to feel regret in my life.... at least i can fight for what i want once..... who knows what happen tomorrow? who can predict future?
but, i can't even turn back now, but i'll fight for my future sooner or later...... wish me luck~haha:b
i hometown-ing for one week already, still got two weeks to go and i will start my 2nd year of my psychology course....well, the weather here is damn hot, i can't even stand it.....but the crazy thing is the sky always raining only at night time....this really drived me crazy......i still wondering how all the people go to redang island? did they want to make themselves as a roasted pork?haha....
arghhh~really damn bored here, stay stupidly at home and nothing to do.....i just wait for my phone to ring then i went out "yum cha" with my two best friends....they are apple and th.....i had spend my half weeks with them......
damn boring....although today is mother's day, but we (my family) do not go out to celebrate....it was due to my dearest mum's choice.....she even ask my eldest bro and and do not need to buy cake.........the first year i didn't celebrate mother's day...haiz....so pity....but nevermind, because " mum i still love you till the end of the world" .... :P
nothing much to write ,so i'll stop here....miss you all my buddy....hehe
i have a whole week for my "honeymoon" started from the day i finished my exam, 27th Apr-3rd May....hehe...on 27th Apr,4pm...after finished my last paper, xinyi & i went to jusco together......i went to jusco with her because I ask her accompany me to buy some grocery at jusco, after reach jusco, I went to grab all the things I need and paid….then we plan to have our hi-tea at secret recipe, we having lasagna for our hi-tea……after finish it, we went to MPH , a bookstore ,just to take a look at the book, see whether there have any books that can caught my sight, but xinyi said “it is so mean to her went to the book store, because she have to save her money to next semester to buy the book she want to….”haha….she said that he do not want to buy any book, but finally she also get herself a note book use for next sem…. After that we go shop almost all the shop in jusco, afterthat I feel so tired, so I sit at the bench that provide by the supermarket….after chit-chattin for almost one hour, we decided to go to the secret recipe again to have our cheese cake for dinner….after having it, we paid and the waiter said “tomorrow, come here a gain ya~” I whisper to xinyi,if we come tomorrow, he will really happy de, but we’ll going to sad of lack of pocket money…..muhahaha
darren, dada, wayne & me~
My happy day is start from today till the 3rd of may, so, what I going to do? Well, today I go sing “k” with 3 of my frens they’re xinyi, dada and Darren…..but I lose the chance to see the two guy I wish to see…sobz sobz….but nevermind,today I have bought two GIORDANO shirts for someone birthday present, as I promise to him, and I owe him the presentlast year, so I have to buy two present for him as last year and this year’s birthday present….I going to crazy…..haha…..i almost use RM100 for today justfor buying 2 present,2 belts for myself , sing “k” and also eat….but nevermind as long as I am happy enough…..just long long 1 time….haha….just an excuse…haha
kelly birthdayzzz~wish you happy always and stay healthy.....
30th May~ today, i went to sing "k" again...haha....with darren, dada, tx and wayne......and two more don and stephanie( if not mistaken, i'm not very sure of her name, sorry :P).........i hate the service there, always when people wanna to get high, the servant will came in......and today, the foods there tasted really bad....after finish our "k" time at 2pm......we have another round with kelly, josh, hui fen, ah boy, kuan kau, and also sky.....we celebrated kelly birthday together.....so happy ya~...while singing, a servant came and ask two people to play a game....a "weird" game- they ask the participants to drink a glass of soda water, after finished the soda water, the participants have to blow a balloons till it burst......after that we sang till 5pm, goshhhhh~really tired.....after that we went back to wangsa maju with the "stupid" metrobus, it takes us 2 hour to reach wangsa maju......
after that, i had my dinner with darren, dada, and wayne at wangsa maju "爱面子" to had our "pan mee".....after having dinner we go to "V2" -a cyber cafe at wangsa.....and i fool around there until 4.30 am....then we continue our "yam cha" time at "BRJ" and back home at 5am.....haizzzz~really a tired day.....
start from today, i have my lonely "honeymoon" until 2nd May and flight back to my lovely home on 3rd May.....i will miss you all for 3 weeks....hehe :P
an ordinary gal that like to make frens.....sometimes will becum crazy when hang out wiv frens but i m friendly too...haha.........i wan to meet alll of u around the world.......
