happy birthday ~

today my class hav a lot of ppl's birthday
our class celebrate the birthday together wiv dem
but when i sing the birthday song
i think of u
my heart is so pain, like tis never happen to me before
i thinkin a lot about u today
i think tat how r u now?
did u happy in the place u get to be there now?
do u happy?
wat was there hav? is there good enough to u?
i so curious abt there-heaven
i think do u hav frens there?
but the pain make me gonna cry, i try to no bother about it and continue to prepare my for my exam
den i think do u noe tat i miss u a lot here?
i reali miss u a lot like u never been left me......
but it's jz a fact tat u hav leave me.......
anyway,today's ur birthday
so " happy birthday " to u
and hope u received my wish wherever u r.......
i luv u so much.......

忘不了の痛 ~

在你离开的那一杀那，你已经改变了我的一生..........
你带给我的创伤和伤痕是永远都无法抹灭的
你知道那到底对我来说有多痛吗？
我当时痛到快窒息了，痛到快麻痹了
你带走了我该有快乐的生活，带走了我该有的爱
你走了我的快乐只是虚假的，那都是强颜欢笑，而并非想像中快乐
你走了，留下给我的阴影要我如何释怀
我曾埋怨过你的离开
没留下任何一句话的就离开了
我以为时间久了，伤痕就会慢慢的淡去
我会渐渐的复原，不会再痛，再伤心，再为你哭
可是我错了，每当我想起你，我还是不自觉的留下了眼泪
我的心还是会痛，我以为我把它处理的很好，其实并没有
你还是存在于我的心里
你是我不想碰触在我心里的一个缺角和痛处
我每次告诉自己无所谓的，你一定可以撑过去的
可是我并非想像中的坚强，其实我还是会痛，会伤心，会想念着你
假如时间能在倒流，我多希望我对你好些
不顶你的嘴，你不允许的我都遵守，不让你伤心和担心，多听你的话，做个孝顺你的女儿
多希望你能疼我多一天，爱我多一天
这样我就满足了
我总觉得你给我的时间太短了
不过一切的一切都太迟了..........

充满杯面的日子~

现在发现原来学院的生活好难过啊!我最近的生活都被杯面给充满了，肚子饿了杯面就出现在眼前，当功课很忙时，杯面在次出现，有事无事就吃杯面就对了.................
每天晚上忙到好迟，每当眼睛快闭上时，就会很努力的把眼皮撑开，好累，快让我休息睡觉吧!

missing u ~

my dearest.........,

i miss u so much.........like i can feel u wherever i go..........
i can feel u alwaez beside me........like u alwaez do.............
i feel i wanna touch u and c u again......................................
but it's too far for me and so difficult to me........................
i reali love u like u love me before........................................
everytime when i feel tired and desperate.........................
i will think abt u and keep remembering ur face ..............
i can even remember u vividly in my memory..................
now,i really miss u a lot..........................................................
do u miss me like i do?...........................................................
i hate u tat u leave me jz like tat..........................................
without any words left...........................................................
but i'll still love u and miss u whenever u go......................




the one tat
love u alwaez...

moody~

i din smile,not means i'm not happy
i din angry,not means i din hav emotions
i din cry,not means i 'm not hurt at all
i drops a tears not means i'm sad,maybe tat i m too happy
i smile not becoz i'm happy,jz thinkin tat how fool m i
although i had stop crying ,but my tears still dropping non-stop
wat to do~

wat i hav think~

i hav think a lot laz nite............
happy or unhappy is juz a rythm of life...........
if life is a important meal,
den love is jz dessert.............
if life din hav all such thing....
sad , happy , dissapointed , hurt , desperate...........
den the life will becum black and white ,
not tat colourful as u think........................
if wan colourful ur life den let it be in all bad and best situation....................

hate ar ~

tis the fiz time i feel reali tired until hav the feeling of crying..........
i'm reali tired now............stress ar............reali tired.........who can keep holding me den from fallen.......i hate tis life now........although it is freedom but my soul is on the way to dying........so desperate ...........who can rescue me............i reali need it.............the tears drop non-stop and the heart keep bleeding...........reali pain.............although hav a lot of frens , but the one reali understand ,and noe u is not occured............the one u reali need ,the one can always stay by ur side is not longer belong to u.........and i oso not longer belong to one part of dem.........i'm the only one stand out of situation..........do u noe the feeling.............stand out of everything happen surrounding.............i pretend to dono abt it...........choose to not listen abt it.............choose to be "blind"...........not to see wat reali happen surround me...............but sometime i still think whether is tat "worthy" for me.....but sumtime there was sumthings out of wat i'm thinking.............i jz wan peace..............if giv me a chance again...........i think i wont go through tis path...........it's too hard for me.............but i'll try to do my best..................."gambateh"

broken heart~

wat become of a broken hearted?
who can answer it?
izzit all my wrong?
tell me abt it..........if falling love wiv u is a fault.......den wat can i do ? stop it ? if it can be....tell me wat to do........i beg u.pls...........if u r hurt den i will hurt more den u hundred , thousand times..........tell me pls........whose wrong izzit ? is tat mine ? or your's ? or the god ? or sum other people else ? if u wan me to forget u ,pls treat me more cruel tat u can ? den i will hate u more tat wat u wan.........the cruelest from u, the better for me............
" どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう？
どんなに時が流れても君はずっと
ここにいると、思ってたのに
でも君が選んだのは違う道"

if u stay happy , den i will feel blissful too............
i reali love u so much.........
i will send all my blessing to u..........

LOVE~

wat make me luv u ?
y do i luv u ?
izzit worthy to luv u?
i keep giving wat u want ,but wat u hav giving me is nothing ,nothing.....tat is wat u treats me....

With a calm face you lie
And then laugh until you feel sick
Saying, “Let’s have nothing but fun”
Feeling blue over desiring the impossible
Everyone is seeking peace
You’re struggling, but you’ve had enough
So now you’re chasing love's shadow
Boring days suddenly shined
Since the day you appeared
You made me think that loneliness and torment were ok
Through painful times and healthy times,
Stormy days and sunny days, let’s walk on together
’m gonna tell you the truth
I chose a secretly painful path
and you come to support me
You’re the only one I can call "friend"
Fake displays of strength and avarice have become meaningless
You've made me love you since that day
When I’m free, with time to spare, there’s no life in being alone
Just a little more
*Don’t you give up*
Oh don’t leave me-no matter what
If the cruelty of reality tries to tear us apart
We’ll be drawn more closely to one another
Somehow, somehow, I have a feeling we’ll be able to stand firm
Every day banalities quickly began to shine
You stole my heart that day
You made me think that loneliness and torment were ok
Stay with me, stay with me
My baby, say you love me
Stay with me, stay with me
Don’t leave me


it's so meaningful....tat is wat u giv me.........tats wat u do to me........izzit tat i deserve to had?..........