hate ar ~

tis the fiz time i feel reali tired until hav the feeling of crying..........
i'm reali tired now............stress ar............reali tired.........who can keep holding me den from fallen.......i hate tis life now........although it is freedom but my soul is on the way to dying........so desperate ...........who can rescue me............i reali need it.............the tears drop non-stop and the heart keep bleeding...........reali pain.............although hav a lot of frens , but the one reali understand ,and noe u is not occured............the one u reali need ,the one can always stay by ur side is not longer belong to u.........and i oso not longer belong to one part of dem.........i'm the only one stand out of situation..........do u noe the feeling.............stand out of everything happen surrounding.............i pretend to dono abt it...........choose to not listen abt it.............choose to be "blind"...........not to see wat reali happen surround me...............but sometime i still think whether is tat "worthy" for me.....but sumtime there was sumthings out of wat i'm thinking.............i jz wan peace..............if giv me a chance again...........i think i wont go through tis path...........it's too hard for me.............but i'll try to do my best..................."gambateh"