my first touching teardrop~

"something that can't reach without a pair of helping hands"

this is the first time i cried because of some words that really touched my heart....i chatting with my little "miracle worker" just now....i tell her that i really feel tired of my life now, no matter is my relationship, my friendships, my study or even myself....it really make me loaded.....i can't do anything....sometimes, i even think i'm really useless...i can't even think about my so called "failure's life".....i realize sometimes a person really can't stand up for your ownself when you faced a problem or issue.... it really so hard to do it by your own....

but i realize that i'm wrong, i thought that when problem occurred and you had to forced yourself to solve it yourself, it maybe a good chance or opportunity to learn to grow and independent, and maybe made a person matured in perspectives of view, thoughts and acts....but, i'm wrong, sometimes in the process you learn to grow you need the other parties to give support to you....how naive am i before?.....

but xinyi tell me something that i really get touched is "don't tired of yourself, if you ever think you don't like yourself, remember L4, L4 all "sayang" you...." i notice about that, everytime i was down, L4, you all always stay by my side.....you all are my everything, my emotional support...."i love all of you"......my tears dropped because of touched.....all the words really meaningful to me.....thanks .......