everything change~

Is that when we grow older, everything changed for us? That's lotta things that we not dare to do, things that we afraid to think of, things that we are fear to speak out.....Is that because we started to think a lot from different ways or perspectives, and it make us always scared to step ourselves out~ we started to consider about how people view us, did they will talk something bad behind us, how they perceive us and will they mind how we behave and what we had said?

As we grow older, we consider a lot~ we do not have the folly and the impulse that make us do the things that we want anymore~sometimes it is just an easy things, but we make it complicated and hard to complete it.....

I found that sometimes I want to tell the truth but indeed it is not so easy as I thought....Just like I wanna tell you that I really want to try to be with you, but I scared the answer that given by you is not the answer that I want.....I found it really hard for me to open my mouth and tell you about that...It is hard for me to step out.....

Maybe you don't mind what people say behind you, but I mind.....When you found out that you fall in love with the person and people always take it as a opening as they're really innocent that they don't even know one of them had really fall in love....It really hurts sometimes.....

I try so hard to get to know you and understand you, but what I've got was you keep pushing me away~I don't want it to be like this anymore......please try to view it seriously, I know how good you are, but I want to remain this friendship rather than ruined it just to get what I want from you~please listen seriously to what I gonna tell you~♥