birthday mood~

birthday~ did birthday very important to you all? do everyone of you waiting for the day to come? what do you expect in that day? a surprised? or dissapointed (cause no people remember it)? tomorrow is my friend's birthday, "sky, happy birthday ya....."

today, i asked my friend to accompany me to JUSCO to buy present and some groceries too....LOL....after bought the present we went to OLD TOWN to have our lunch......suddenly, my friend, hui ling asked " joanne, what present do you want in your coming birthday?is better that you tell me what you want, cause i dont know want to buy what for you....." then i answered " i also don't know what i want...." actually, i really still not in that mood yet.....there are a lot of reasons....

• the phobia of getting older and older, this is the last year for me, then my age will started with the number, 2
• after he left me, i somehow feel birthday is not important anymore....
• for how long i did'nt celebrated it with my family, i can't even remember it
• what i need, no ones knew about it (i didn't mentoned about it before)

about the question my friend asked about....said honestly, i really don't know what i want.....but instead of the material satisfaction.....i more appetence towards:

• love
• care
  
• warmth
• friendships

i felt like i needed them badly, if not i think i will fall apart when i reach some phase.....i hope i cant get them from you all....haha....am i greedy? don't ever tell me that i greedy, caused i can't get it from the people that who supposed provide it for me, so i had to grab it by myself.....haha.....

last.....i gonna sing a "birthday's song" for sky....

happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to sky,
happy birthday to you........

"wish you happy always, stayed healthy and dreams come true always"

see how good i treated you,haha.......