happy birthday ~

today my class hav a lot of ppl's birthday
our class celebrate the birthday together wiv dem
but when i sing the birthday song
i think of u
my heart is so pain, like tis never happen to me before
i thinkin a lot about u today
i think tat how r u now?
did u happy in the place u get to be there now?
do u happy?
wat was there hav? is there good enough to u?
i so curious abt there-heaven
i think do u hav frens there?
but the pain make me gonna cry, i try to no bother about it and continue to prepare my for my exam
den i think do u noe tat i miss u a lot here?
i reali miss u a lot like u never been left me......
but it's jz a fact tat u hav leave me.......
anyway,today's ur birthday
so " happy birthday " to u
and hope u received my wish wherever u r.......
i luv u so much.......

忘不了の痛 ~

在你离开的那一杀那，你已经改变了我的一生..........
你带给我的创伤和伤痕是永远都无法抹灭的
你知道那到底对我来说有多痛吗？
我当时痛到快窒息了，痛到快麻痹了
你带走了我该有快乐的生活，带走了我该有的爱
你走了我的快乐只是虚假的，那都是强颜欢笑，而并非想像中快乐
你走了，留下给我的阴影要我如何释怀
我曾埋怨过你的离开
没留下任何一句话的就离开了
我以为时间久了，伤痕就会慢慢的淡去
我会渐渐的复原，不会再痛，再伤心，再为你哭
可是我错了，每当我想起你，我还是不自觉的留下了眼泪
我的心还是会痛，我以为我把它处理的很好，其实并没有
你还是存在于我的心里
你是我不想碰触在我心里的一个缺角和痛处
我每次告诉自己无所谓的，你一定可以撑过去的
可是我并非想像中的坚强，其实我还是会痛，会伤心，会想念着你
假如时间能在倒流，我多希望我对你好些
不顶你的嘴，你不允许的我都遵守，不让你伤心和担心，多听你的话，做个孝顺你的女儿
多希望你能疼我多一天，爱我多一天
这样我就满足了
我总觉得你给我的时间太短了
不过一切的一切都太迟了..........

充满杯面的日子~

现在发现原来学院的生活好难过啊!我最近的生活都被杯面给充满了，肚子饿了杯面就出现在眼前，当功课很忙时，杯面在次出现，有事无事就吃杯面就对了.................
每天晚上忙到好迟，每当眼睛快闭上时，就会很努力的把眼皮撑开，好累，快让我休息睡觉吧!

missing u ~

my dearest.........,

i miss u so much.........like i can feel u wherever i go..........
i can feel u alwaez beside me........like u alwaez do.............
i feel i wanna touch u and c u again......................................
but it's too far for me and so difficult to me........................
i reali love u like u love me before........................................
everytime when i feel tired and desperate.........................
i will think abt u and keep remembering ur face ..............
i can even remember u vividly in my memory..................
now,i really miss u a lot..........................................................
do u miss me like i do?...........................................................
i hate u tat u leave me jz like tat..........................................
without any words left...........................................................
but i'll still love u and miss u whenever u go......................




the one tat
love u alwaez...

moody~

i din smile,not means i'm not happy
i din angry,not means i din hav emotions
i din cry,not means i 'm not hurt at all
i drops a tears not means i'm sad,maybe tat i m too happy
i smile not becoz i'm happy,jz thinkin tat how fool m i
although i had stop crying ,but my tears still dropping non-stop
wat to do~

wat i hav think~

i hav think a lot laz nite............
happy or unhappy is juz a rythm of life...........
if life is a important meal,
den love is jz dessert.............
if life din hav all such thing....
sad , happy , dissapointed , hurt , desperate...........
den the life will becum black and white ,
not tat colourful as u think........................
if wan colourful ur life den let it be in all bad and best situation....................

hate ar ~

tis the fiz time i feel reali tired until hav the feeling of crying..........
i'm reali tired now............stress ar............reali tired.........who can keep holding me den from fallen.......i hate tis life now........although it is freedom but my soul is on the way to dying........so desperate ...........who can rescue me............i reali need it.............the tears drop non-stop and the heart keep bleeding...........reali pain.............although hav a lot of frens , but the one reali understand ,and noe u is not occured............the one u reali need ,the one can always stay by ur side is not longer belong to u.........and i oso not longer belong to one part of dem.........i'm the only one stand out of situation..........do u noe the feeling.............stand out of everything happen surrounding.............i pretend to dono abt it...........choose to not listen abt it.............choose to be "blind"...........not to see wat reali happen surround me...............but sometime i still think whether is tat "worthy" for me.....but sumtime there was sumthings out of wat i'm thinking.............i jz wan peace..............if giv me a chance again...........i think i wont go through tis path...........it's too hard for me.............but i'll try to do my best..................."gambateh"