2010, new chapter, the begining~

2010, the begining, exam cumin soon, but I didn't have the motivation to study~left one week for me to revise my subject~please help me~motivation faster cum to me, I need u so bad.....^^(act like crazy)

haiz......I really heartache of something happened, drive me moody and crazy.....felt like want to stab myself~but I won't write it here...it will be a secret.....the secret that only know by myself~ok, forget about it~

let's talk my vacations, where I celebrate my new year, I went to Batu Pahat to have vacations in my friend house, what we do there was we ate lotta
delicious kind of food, went to waterfalls and hot spring, and what we do when we get bored at home-we snapped a lot of crazy photos and even learn to dance sorry sorry by super junior, which learned from my fren's bro.....well, what to say, he's good in dance and posing...wakaka>.<"

shop a lot at there, and buy a shirt and called "family shirt" which our family get it each person, and wear it together when we go out together......watch "alvin and the chipmunks" in the cinema on the new year eve......first time having my new year celebration with all my lovely friends and family members. thanks for da jie family who treat us perfectly nice and good~I really have an unforgettable and nice trip~I miss the porridge so much~hehe~^.^



is time to sleep~gud nite and sweet dreamz~

2010,new year, new wish, a brand new "me"~

2010, will it be a good year for me? of course it is, cause i steps into 2o now, can't waste anytime anymore~have to plan for my future~become a brand new me~haha~but what i want change? actually, i have no idea~~

but here i want to wish all my friends stay healthy, happy, pretty and handsome alwaez~ who are in relationship den please be blissful and stay forever together, who still study, good luck in your study, who want to further to overseas, do take good care and last for myself, FRIENDSHIP FOREVER with all my dearly and lovely friends.......

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL..............



p/s: wish i can graduates....hehe~coz i keep worrying la~pls dun laugh~seriously~

why??? why???

I thinks is human nature to ask "WHY"......
Why they ask "WHY".....
Because they need to know or should know or curious about lor or they want to "38"....lol
Well, I also find out I like to ask "WHY" recently......
Just now I tried not to ask, but at last I ask it.....
But my purpose is just want to make sure about the promise that he made....(find myself an excuse)
The promise that somehow broke by himself......
At least he gave me an acceptable reason.....
So, I'll forgive you for this time....
But, please not to do it the second time.....
What I'll do, you also very clear about it already......
And I'll not ask "WHY" again to you, if it is not necessary.....
See you soon, take care~

p/s: dun ask "WHY" so much, it's annoying~

nothing alright in my life....

Life really sucks doesn't it?
How you predict you life should be?
Do you always live a life in the way you want?

Huh, but unluckily I am not, the life I live always goes out of my control.....
What can I do?
I never afford anything really good in my life, I just wish too be swimmingly,
did i really greedy?
But i don't think so......

My happy day just get ruined by one brainless guy, who do not think before the words to say....
I'm wondering what's his brain is used for.....
For cheating girls, bragging or something else like ask for money from the parents...
Tell you that you are nobody, you are just a prodigal, someone who are useless.....
So please drag your ass off from my life, I really hate the people like you.....
Stay away from now on!

How deep is the hurts you bring to me, you'll not discovered it....
Now I'll tell you, you make me cry whole night, I'll make you suffer for you whole life.....
So, please watch out yourself!

Really nothings go better since the first time we met!

回忆。。。

今天，10月的最后一天也就是明天就是11月的迈入~突然觉得时间过得好快！总觉得生活没什么色彩，改变和高潮跌起~刚才冲凉时，突然想了一个问题“到底有什么比死亡来的可怕?" 然后，我觉得忘记某件事情很可怕~试想想有一天你突然想不起任何一件事，脑袋一片空白，或是你最重要的回忆消失了——你把你最爱的人的脸忘了，再也想不起，你会怎么做？

想象你的回忆就像墙上的油漆一片片剥落，落到了地上，被一场大雨冲走了，久而久之再也没人想起那道墙最初的颜色是什么~就像我们的脑袋一直被新的回忆和事物有所取代而逐渐忘了旧的~我好怕有一天，我闭上眼睛却回忆不到那张再熟悉不过的样子~

就像有些事值得重来，有些不值得重来也不值得往回看，有些却是你想重来却不能重来的事~人们却往往没有选择的余地，因为一切以有所安排~所谓人要跌到后才会成长，辛苦后才会幸福，失去后才会珍惜，哭过了才会微笑，失败后才会成功~太容易得到的东西，永远学不会珍惜。。。

毕竟享受过程才会找到快乐~我总觉得幸福是用痛苦换来的但有人说那是用你的努力和辛苦的付出换回来的而不是痛苦！这代表每个人看事情的角度并不一样~就像一个人用一个杯子看世界和一个人用万花筒看世界，谁的世界会比较缤纷色彩~

原来，看着自己喜欢的人的背影也是一件幸福的事~但如果有一天你不再属于我，那将会是一个对我来说很美好的回忆，因为你由始至终都不会知道原来我暗恋了你那么久~呵呵~不过，暂时为止我的回忆依然是美好的但还是有坏的，不过它会是我学习的回忆~我至今仍然保存这那些美好的，希望它不要有退色或是被遗忘的一天~

那你的回忆是好是坏呢？想把它保留还是忘了，自己抉择吧！不过还是祝你有美好的回忆~^6^

without an answer & also a reason....

I bought a book few months ago in the book exhibition, last few days I go back to my home and there are damn boring without bringing my dearly laptop along, so I decided to find somethings to do~ In a sudden, the book said " pick me, pick me! " Seems like I heard that so I took it out from the paper bag....What I do next was I turnover the page of the book and after few pages I fall asleep~><"

Yesterday, my class ends at 2p.m~ after i reach home, I became a cleaner and started to vacuum up my room, when I stepped out from my room, Oh my god! I saw the floor are full with hair then I decided to clean it up....What next~I cleaned up the bathroom too~ after cleaned all the things up and I took a shower and took a nap~ I woke up nearly 7p.m....after my dinner, I lay on my bed by doing nothing~suddenly, I heard a sound " take a look on me, please~" I turn my head on and take it up and read it~

It makes me addicted on it.....The book name is " The Pact"~ I keep on reading untill 12.30a.m and is time for me to sleep to prepare for tomorrow morning class.....so, placed the book beside my bed and have my sweet dreams~ What I want to say now is the book is really nice because it catches my eyes on it and addicted to it~

What the book is about? It is about a story about a pair of teenagers that name Chris and Emily, there are best friends, lover, neighbors and even soul mates since they were born. They even have a good life which the both families are good friends. But things changed when the seventeen year old Emily dead with a gunshots wound on the head, and Chris survived~ Chris comes out with words that said " We intend to commit suicide together..." This story are about family, friends, lover and the most important things are " Do we really know and understand our children at all?"

Although, some parts of the story are without answer and also reasons~but it worth to read.....now, I still keep searching for a book that I longs for it "The Turkish Diplomat's Daughter".....

turn around.....and forget it~

Can I? Turn around and forget him? I thought that I can win your heart one day, but what i have seen too hard to achieve.... I thought that I had forgot you just like easy as erased you from my memory~ but it proved that I'm wrong....

Look at me~ if can what I hope is to hear that you say "you hate me"....as long as the words can make me feel that you are hate me and I'll cut off my feeling towards you~ you have the right to be happy and blissful~ but you know sometimes people are selfish and greedy, this is the nature of person....who will so kind to offer the person he/she like to others? If can I hope that you just belong to me~but that is impossible~ I had no choice, so what I can do is let you go~ I swore that I have no courage to tell you what I'm thinking~

Is too hard for me to reach what I want~ask yourself do you ever wonder what a person am I, or even see me through eyes to eyes? I can told you that, it is too bad, you did not ~ Can I just turn my back and if I look back again, can you live happily and blissfully ever after that can make me happy also~ Please remember although you did not belong to me but can you do me the favour? You have the right to chase after what you want and the things belong to you~I'll choose to turn around this time without look back, if there are anything happen then I'll wait around the corner to look after you, whenever you fall apart I'll stay beside of you and stand by you~that's my promise to you~but, is time to turn around and forget~

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