sad......missin u......

the day u left me, there was raining heavily, i standing in the rain, watching u tat turn ur back, and juz walk away from me like tat, my vision become blur and blur, den i realize tat i was crying......., the rain is juz like my heart is crying and bleeding, i can felt tat is so pain......., i can even stand for it, i miss u day after day, the miss is so mean to me....., the miss is so deep, i keep asking myself, ven i can stop thinking of u........, i have to get myself out of thinkin of u...... but the last thing left in my mind is......... i so so so in love wiv u, i finally find out that i still love u....., like the past i do, i cant stop myself keep missin u...... i love u.......miss u a lot.....

to the one who is cheer up me.......luv is for u......

u r the most good and nice guy i had ever meet......u cheer up me and bring me a lot of joy......although we are too far too each other, but we still have a strong relationship.....the day i met u, u colour up and bright up my life....... i reali wan to thanks u for tat....but i realize tat we'll get apart one day, now we can meet everyday but the day after tomolo i juz can meet u on sunday when u are free from your study.......but i pray that u wont dump me, because u noe that i can't stand for lonely...........i reali love u a lot..........by the way, i wana thanks u that u exist in my life.....i reali feel very happy and i appreciate the relationship we have now............love u.......sweet moment for me.......

to the one i luv so much, J

wat a sucks day......

wat a sucks day for me, inthe time tat doesn't notice anything, i get scolded......wat the f*ck, hey, i hate to get scolded, although i m not doin my things, but tat is all my right, i no need to ask permission abt tat to u all, sumore u all not my whose tat i need to tell all the things to u, u noe wat, i feel myself get offended, for me,its too much and getting over, wat are goin between me and u all, if not satisfy, wat should i do, is tat i born to satisfy all of tis stupid ppl needs, the "rythm" use to talk juz like argue, u noe wat i hate is.......the smile on u all face, look like a devil.......a sweet smile tat hang on the face and inside is hanging a sword, anytime wat u did wrong, the sword will slash ur skin and maybe hurt ur heart, u noe how pain izzit for me wat u hav talk, u noe tat hurt so much......i dono y i keep thinkin abt the word,it coming on and on in my mind,it reali ruin me, i hate tat, i m thinkin if tat are no law in tis world maybe i will talk out wat i wan to talk, for me u all are too over to care watever things in my life now, i even feel tat ,tat is my privacy,it should not be like tat,i even think wat happen to me,i keep silent is becoz i dono wat should i talk abt now.......it is for me now to pretend tat i m mute, i dun wan to hurt anyone n oso myself, but can u all oso dun hurt me, sumtime i try very hard to repair tis relation, but i feel tired ven thare was the only one i work myself, jz like being in a love realtion tat the one;s tat keep givin out, now i becum frustrated becoz there r no longer tat u all will oso work for it, it is impossible to me, i keep goin like tis becoz i still care abt the relationship tat we hav now.....................

the answer.....

to the one who wana noe it......
i giv up nt becoz i'm already no feeling to u.....but there is sumthin else.....i giv up becoz i found tat sumone tat love u and care u more den i did....so i think she is more love u....but doesn't u notice abt tat....she reali a nice person....try too think abt it and try to look at her.....i didnt say that u're a things tat can offer to other, pls dun be misunderstanding.....it is becoz i reali not yet to get ready wat u hav given me now and i cant even treat bec u like how good u treat me.....said reali.....i remember the fiz time we meet....the smile on ur face like an angle......in my head i thinkin abt tis is the nice guy.......although we dono each other at the time.....but times goin and goin...i found tat love reali a things tat are very selfish.....sumtime people even holding tight for a relationship tat are no love at all, jz keep holding a person under a no feeling condition.....i reali dun wan tis happen to each of us....i wan to c u happy alwaez like before, not like now tat u alwaez getting to the down time......i reali hate to c u like tat.....sumtime let go is a good try to make us more good and hav a space to gasp for sum new air, try to move in a new condition or rest.....juz giv me sum time, ican prove tat u and me can make the rite and good.....try to look for her who alwaez be ur side....but if reali cant den i will jz be there for u.....the door in the heart will alwaez welcomin u as a frens....jz give me sum time to get ready for it.....i reali feel sorry to u......but anyway i hope u happy alwaez.....rmb wat i tell u before.....sometime a good relationship will goin more better ven u let go, if that is urs den it will come bec for u, no matter where u r and wat u hav done.....becoz love alwaez perceive people good and bad......no matter who u r......

幸福。。。

幸福永远藏在某个角落让你自己去寻找，要得到幸福就得要有勇气。。。今天我终于鼓起勇气得到我向往已久的答案，为了我的友谊着想，我问了答案，因为我害怕失去他们，如果没有你们，我的世界将一片空白。。。不过，在哭泣的同时，我尝到了幸福的滋味。。。这不是每个人都能拥有的，因为你们让我了解我所犯下的错误，与我的不该。。。在此，我要真正的向你们说声抱歉，真的很对不起，我会试着改变的，我发现这是我一直以来最珍贵的一段友谊。。。谢谢你们一直都在。。。我永远都爱你们。。。哈哈。。。是说真的很感谢你们。。。

blissful *happy * friendship* love*

Did blissful, happy, friendship and love can happen and have it in the same time? If u jz can hav one only in a time which one tat u will choose? for me, i would choose friendships...becoz friendship are more important to me den the others.....although i'm the one who keep giving but i dun care....i wan friendship....a lot of my frens said, i m the one who can live single without any love relationship and also man....haha....i can do everythings for u as long as u're my frens.....but sometimes i realize tat i oso need love, sumone to love me, care me and do sumthins for me.....last few days i was thinkin tat can blissful and happiness happen in the same time,and can i hav both in the same time.....jz like can u hav friendship and love in the same time....a lot of ppl lost their friendship ven they fall in love....they take a lot of care in the loving time and lose their friendship, but sumtime ven a ppl take a lot care on their friendship den they lost their lovers....so in this situation wat will u choose....friendship?? lovers?? izzit to hav both and take care on both is too difficult to us....think abt it......hope all of u can get these four things blissful, hgappy, frienship and love in the same time in this year 2009......wish all of u haappy and stay healthy......

wat is friends like.....

anyone can tell me, wat is frens like.............
becoz of some words of my frens...........i think abt it all through tis week.....
i thinkin whether wat they tell really rite and occurs around me..........
frens......tis word like it means some teasing for me.......i duno y.....

i try to feel wat friendship is like......
friends come and go in my life,
they don't even stop to care and c wat happen around u.....
they didn't ask abt the things occurs in ur life....they even not to take attention abt tat.....
some will say frienship is jz a relationship that exploit to each other,
we try to take advantages on each other,like care and warmth......
can u even noe who is main character in ur life, and who is the oni side character?
sumtimes feel tat i'm not really exist in the circle i should be in.....
i try to be hard, but the more i wanted to be, the more i getting hurt,
when u get hurt, there was a scar on it....
it was to hard to cover, the scar jz bring me to the shadow.....
i dun wan that the scar that bring pain to me, i reali cant stand for it.....
the shadow lead me to be offensive.....

i thought if i can pretend to not see it or hear it, i will feel better,but i'm wrong.......
i try to feel it wiv my heart, den it will more even be better.......
ictry it hard, but can u all pls change ur style when i'm talk to u, dun show the expression tat i not really care wat u talk, i cant stand it anymore, or dun even answer my question very unfriendly,
i talking good to u, and nt argue wiv u.....
and dun even judge my opinion, i can tell u i hate it if u do like tat, u hurt my feeling very deep....
i dun wan to be the one who do the stupid changes, if u can do it, i oso cant earn a good relationship wiv u all,
plz everytime take care abt ur talk behaviour, i dun wan to be hurting by u all....
i oni gt a heart and there was ady a scar that deep enough for me tat cant cure even till the day i die, i dun wan to get more scar in my heart and hurt.......
is tat happen, i realli will becum desperate.........i try very hard be4 to let the scare in my heart get cure, bt it cant......i becum more deeper and deeper to hurt my heart, evertime i try hard to pretend tat is nothing to me, there was more hard for me.....
pls change it, i reali need u all too care abt me, even "him" oso......try to learn how perceive it pls....if i cant do it, y cant u all......