wat is friends like.....

anyone can tell me, wat is frens like.............
becoz of some words of my frens...........i think abt it all through tis week.....
i thinkin whether wat they tell really rite and occurs around me..........
frens......tis word like it means some teasing for me.......i duno y.....

i try to feel wat friendship is like......
friends come and go in my life,
they don't even stop to care and c wat happen around u.....
they didn't ask abt the things occurs in ur life....they even not to take attention abt tat.....
some will say frienship is jz a relationship that exploit to each other,
we try to take advantages on each other,like care and warmth......
can u even noe who is main character in ur life, and who is the oni side character?
sumtimes feel tat i'm not really exist in the circle i should be in.....
i try to be hard, but the more i wanted to be, the more i getting hurt,
when u get hurt, there was a scar on it....
it was to hard to cover, the scar jz bring me to the shadow.....
i dun wan that the scar that bring pain to me, i reali cant stand for it.....
the shadow lead me to be offensive.....

i thought if i can pretend to not see it or hear it, i will feel better,but i'm wrong.......
i try to feel it wiv my heart, den it will more even be better.......
ictry it hard, but can u all pls change ur style when i'm talk to u, dun show the expression tat i not really care wat u talk, i cant stand it anymore, or dun even answer my question very unfriendly,
i talking good to u, and nt argue wiv u.....
and dun even judge my opinion, i can tell u i hate it if u do like tat, u hurt my feeling very deep....
i dun wan to be the one who do the stupid changes, if u can do it, i oso cant earn a good relationship wiv u all,
plz everytime take care abt ur talk behaviour, i dun wan to be hurting by u all....
i oni gt a heart and there was ady a scar that deep enough for me tat cant cure even till the day i die, i dun wan to get more scar in my heart and hurt.......
is tat happen, i realli will becum desperate.........i try very hard be4 to let the scare in my heart get cure, bt it cant......i becum more deeper and deeper to hurt my heart, evertime i try hard to pretend tat is nothing to me, there was more hard for me.....
pls change it, i reali need u all too care abt me, even "him" oso......try to learn how perceive it pls....if i cant do it, y cant u all......

happy birthday ~

today my class hav a lot of ppl's birthday
our class celebrate the birthday together wiv dem
but when i sing the birthday song
i think of u
my heart is so pain, like tis never happen to me before
i thinkin a lot about u today
i think tat how r u now?
did u happy in the place u get to be there now?
do u happy?
wat was there hav? is there good enough to u?
i so curious abt there-heaven
i think do u hav frens there?
but the pain make me gonna cry, i try to no bother about it and continue to prepare my for my exam
den i think do u noe tat i miss u a lot here?
i reali miss u a lot like u never been left me......
but it's jz a fact tat u hav leave me.......
anyway,today's ur birthday
so " happy birthday " to u
and hope u received my wish wherever u r.......
i luv u so much.......

忘不了の痛 ~

在你离开的那一杀那，你已经改变了我的一生..........
你带给我的创伤和伤痕是永远都无法抹灭的
你知道那到底对我来说有多痛吗？
我当时痛到快窒息了，痛到快麻痹了
你带走了我该有快乐的生活，带走了我该有的爱
你走了我的快乐只是虚假的，那都是强颜欢笑，而并非想像中快乐
你走了，留下给我的阴影要我如何释怀
我曾埋怨过你的离开
没留下任何一句话的就离开了
我以为时间久了，伤痕就会慢慢的淡去
我会渐渐的复原，不会再痛，再伤心，再为你哭
可是我错了，每当我想起你，我还是不自觉的留下了眼泪
我的心还是会痛，我以为我把它处理的很好，其实并没有
你还是存在于我的心里
你是我不想碰触在我心里的一个缺角和痛处
我每次告诉自己无所谓的，你一定可以撑过去的
可是我并非想像中的坚强，其实我还是会痛，会伤心，会想念着你
假如时间能在倒流，我多希望我对你好些
不顶你的嘴，你不允许的我都遵守，不让你伤心和担心，多听你的话，做个孝顺你的女儿
多希望你能疼我多一天，爱我多一天
这样我就满足了
我总觉得你给我的时间太短了
不过一切的一切都太迟了..........

充满杯面的日子~

现在发现原来学院的生活好难过啊!我最近的生活都被杯面给充满了，肚子饿了杯面就出现在眼前，当功课很忙时，杯面在次出现，有事无事就吃杯面就对了.................
每天晚上忙到好迟，每当眼睛快闭上时，就会很努力的把眼皮撑开，好累，快让我休息睡觉吧!

missing u ~

my dearest.........,

i miss u so much.........like i can feel u wherever i go..........
i can feel u alwaez beside me........like u alwaez do.............
i feel i wanna touch u and c u again......................................
but it's too far for me and so difficult to me........................
i reali love u like u love me before........................................
everytime when i feel tired and desperate.........................
i will think abt u and keep remembering ur face ..............
i can even remember u vividly in my memory..................
now,i really miss u a lot..........................................................
do u miss me like i do?...........................................................
i hate u tat u leave me jz like tat..........................................
without any words left...........................................................
but i'll still love u and miss u whenever u go......................




the one tat
love u alwaez...

moody~

i din smile,not means i'm not happy
i din angry,not means i din hav emotions
i din cry,not means i 'm not hurt at all
i drops a tears not means i'm sad,maybe tat i m too happy
i smile not becoz i'm happy,jz thinkin tat how fool m i
although i had stop crying ,but my tears still dropping non-stop
wat to do~

wat i hav think~

i hav think a lot laz nite............
happy or unhappy is juz a rythm of life...........
if life is a important meal,
den love is jz dessert.............
if life din hav all such thing....
sad , happy , dissapointed , hurt , desperate...........
den the life will becum black and white ,
not tat colourful as u think........................
if wan colourful ur life den let it be in all bad and best situation....................